ADAM: Hello, Earthlings! You’re watching Adam the Alien, and today is Easter! It’s also April Fool’s! It’s also Passover! And it’s also raining, so as much as I love my Easter-y spring colors, I’m…I’m gonna go put a coat on.
Back in 2009, I participated in the inaugural Vlog Every Day April. And at the very end of that month, I declared that I would never do daily shit again. Fast forward to today, and apparently now IS never. Because this is the start of Vlog Every Day April. And I’m already terrible at it.
Uuuooooaaah! I am not at all ready to do this. I’m exhausted. It’s raining! I have been awake since two in the morning. I do not have any ideal place to film. I did a terrible job shaving and my neck is nothing but razor burn.
OFF-CAMERA VOICE: Who are you talking to?
ADAM: I’m vlogging!
One thing that I have allowed to stop me from creating, in multiple mediums, is just not feeling like things are right, not feeling ready. not feeling like the circumstances are ideal. But you know what? No one is ever really ready.
New parents are never ready for having a child. You become ready by having that child and learning as you go. You’re never really ready for a great opportunity to strike out of nowhere. And Lord knows none of us are ever ready for the weather. And more than that: if you sit around waiting for an ideal circumstance to present itself, it never will. Unless you’re extremely lucky or a very wealthy old white man.
When you don’t feel ready, you feel afraid, at least a little bit. And it can be hard to get past that. But that, to me, is all the more reason to do something. To do this! Some of the greatest experiences I’ve ever had in my life, I was not ready for.
And the idea of doing them terrified me. But I did them anyway, and I do not regret those experiences. If anything, I only ever really regret the things that I didn’t at least try.
Now when I say try, I don’t mean, “Euh…I…I tried.” I mean, ‘RRRRGH! I TRIED!” I don’t think this vlog is working, but I’M GIVING IT MY ALL!
For years, every time April rolls around, or any other month people have decided to make Vlog Every Blank months, I…I have contemplated doing it again.
And every time, I get around to it and I think, “Aaaaaah, I’m not ready. I’ve got so many other things to do. This is just not gonna work out. It’s gonna be crap.” So I think, “Yeah, you know, maybe next year.” And it goes down the line. It goes down the line. It just gets shoved off into the perpetual distant future that never actually happens.
SHIA LABEOUF: Yesterday, you said tomorrow!
ADAM: In other words, I am a huuuuuuge addict of
ZE FRANK: BRAIN CRACK.
ADAM: God, Ze Frank really nailed it by coming up with the term brain crack.
ZE FRANK: No matter how bad things get, at least you have those good ideas. That you’ll get to later.
ADAM: I was thinking about it again this year, and I was really feeling like doing it, and then…you know, still wavering a little bit when I went to church this morning for Easter Sunday. During the sermon, my church’s new pastor told a story that she said she was afraid to tell, but was compelled to because she felt like the Holy Spirit was just telling her to GO BOLD!
PASTOR; Go bold or go home!
ADAM; And that moment almost seemed like the universe telling me, “Hey! Yeah. You should just FRICKIN’ DO IT!”
SHIA LABEOUF: JUST DO IT!
ADAM: She also said something later in the sermon that really struck me.
PASTOR: Don’t be afraid. Because you are loved.
ADAM: You don’t have to be afraid if you know you’re loved. Now, I know not everyone watching this video loves me. But I know I’m loved by the people that matter; by the people whose opinion actually matters to me. So why the heck shouldn’t I just go for it?
So that’s what I’m doing. God help me.
I am going to upload a video every single day this month. Even if it’s garbage. Even if it’s just a single, one-take shot of absolutely nothing. Even if it’s me experimenting with weird animation programs that have come packaged with my new Adobe subscription.
DISEMBODIED LIPS: This is crap. This is crap!
ADAM: There is going to be something on this channel every day this month. I may fail. I probably will! But I’m gonna keep going. Even if something’s late. Even if something’s garbage. I’m gonna keep going. Because I don’t really have a reason to be afraid. And even if I did, that would be all the more reason to frickin’ DO IT!
Go bold or go home. I’m goin’ bold.
Until tomorrow: I’m Adam the Alien…fare thee well.
DISEMBODIED LIPS: ♪ Wo-oh-oh-ooooooh-ooohhhoohhhh!At the late niiiiight double featuuuuure picture shoooooooow! ♪
Mmm, yeah, that felt good. That felt good.